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I am a young mom with 2 children named Gabriel and Grace. I am just moving into a new home and am learning that happiness can be found when and where you least expect it.

Wednesday, May 18, 2011

New Home, New Home, New Home!!!

I am so excited to say that I am officially back. It has been so long since I have been able to share anything new with my few but loyal followers. Thank you to all of you who have been checking back. All though I am going to be soooo busy with this house I promise to share tons of pics of all of my hard work. We sign all of the paper work and officially move in this Friday May 20th. I could not be more excited. As soon as we get through this weekend I will upload some pics of the house. Until then I will tell you a little about it. It is a ranch style home that is located on the river. It has a beautiful back deck that is just huge that over looks the river. It has 4 bedrooms and 2 full baths. The living room has a beautiful sliding glass door that over looks the back deck and river also. Oh and the best part of all is the huge cedar walk in closet!!! Do not let me fool you with all of this grandeur. It needs a lot of work. The basement is mostly finished but my mind is already going into overdrive with all of the possibilities for improvement. Most of the work is cosmetic so hopefully it will be fun and we can get it done fairly quick. I am so excited to be sharing this new chapter in my life with all of you. Please check back soon for some pics and all of my updates.  

Monday, January 10, 2011

Not Ready

Today started off like any other day. I played with my kids, cleaned a little and just tried to relax. I just started reading a new book called The 5 Love Languages by Gary Chapman. My best friend recommended it to me and I love it so far. I think that it is a good thing to read and I am already learning so much. Anyway, my day was just fine until about 8:30 pm came around. My recent ex sent me a text message saying that his father had passed away. I was not at all prepared for this. His father has been in poor health for a while now and has spent a lot of time in the hospital. That being said does not make anything easier. My heart truly goes out to Adam in this time. Even though things may not have worked out for us I still wish him the best. We still communicate because we have children together and that is the last thing that I wanted to hear from him. I loved his dad so much and he was always so kind and loving to me. My heart goes out to Adam and his family and I hope that they know I am here in there time of need. If anyone is listening please say a prayer for him and his family to help them all get through this horrible time.

Mikel Keith Smith; you will be missed!

Wednesday, January 5, 2011


It has been so long since I have had a new post. I know that I have a small amount of followers but I am still sorry if I disappointed any of you. I am ready to be back and to be a little different. I am going to write in my public journal once a week to share and vent to anyone who will listen. This is mostly a way to talk about what I am thinking and feeling but also so that maybe some of you will know that you are not alone with your thoughts and feelings.

I have made such a huge change in my life. Adam and I separated a couple of months ago. I moved back home with my parents and am on the market for a new home. I was putting a smile on my face for so long that I almost had myself fooled. I think this is what a lot of women do. Especially women that have children. I thought that as long as everyone else thought that I was happy that I would be happy myself and that all of the pain would just go away. It is so hard to look back and realize how long it had been since I had truly felt happiness. The kind of happiness that you can not live without.

There were so many days that I did not want to even get out of bed. I would just lay there in the morning trying to find a reason that seemed important enough to live for. Without my children this would have never happened. Everything happened so quickly. Even though it is hard at times to live with my mom and dad I am so grateful that they have accepted me and my children into their home.

Since I do not have a home of my own it is hard to create and make new things to show you guys. Hopefully I can find a way to be crafty and do a lot of fun things so that all of you have something to keep coming back for real soon. Thank you to anyone who is listening and if anyone wants to talk please feel free to send me and email anytime.